Another season of my life where I had the agonizing experience of waiting was when I was waiting to move home from North Carolina. I had been living there for almost two years while my step-daughter was finishing high school, and we had plans to move to Maine once she graduated. I was excited to move back to my home town and have my family grow up on the same streets that I did. I missed my family and my friends and I was so ready to be close to them again. It was so difficult to wait for the end of June to come. It was all I thought about and it pretty much consumed me. I was so focused on moving home that I never stopped to think about all I would be leaving behind. There was a family that I nannied for while I was living there, and we had a play date one of the last few weeks I was in North Carolina. I literally was five minutes away from leaving when I realized this would be the last time I would see them for a long time. I couldn't believe I had been so focused on what was ahead of me, that I didn't stop to appreciate what was right in front of me. I drove away with tears in my eyes as I left behind a family that had become like part of my own.
This experience taught me that while it is not wrong to dream or hope for the future, it shouldn't take over your life and overshadow where you are right now. There is always something to be thankful for and appreciate. Waiting for that sweet baby to arrive? Enjoy these last few days with your husband as a family of two - you will never have those days again. And while your child will bring you so much joy, it will change your life and nothing will ever be as simple as it once was. Just think about the good things in your present life, and that will help you have a different perspective as you trudge through the difficult waiting season.
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