happiness project update

So I had said earlier that I hoped this months project of living intentionally would help me feel more energized and recharged - and when I am able to check off the day's task I do feel great.  However, it has been a lot more difficult than I anticipated - even finding ten minutes is a struggle sometimes.  I have done half of my list - which isn't too bad, but I am not great at giving myself grace.  In a way, I think this "failure" has been a good thing, because I am trying to learn to be okay with not checking every item off the to-do list and I am hoping that I can learn to be okay with doing my best.  I want to work on my perfectionist tendencies because all the completed to-do lists in the world won't make me happy if I miss out on my life and the lives of my kids to do it.  Ultimately, I think this list is serving its purpose, even if it isn't in the way that I originally intended it.

Now on to May's Happiness Project.  The focus for this month is going outside my comfort zone and challenging myself.  I wanted to try something new, finish something difficult, be okay with failure.  I had been thinking a lot over the past few days on what I would like to do. Here is some backstory on how I make my decision.   After admitting defeat too many times, I decided May would be about challenging myself to be healthy.  I will be trying something new by using this instagram account to document my journey.  I want to finish something difficult by coming up with a plan and sticking to it.  I want to be okay with failure in that if something doesn't work, I just try something else.  If I have a day where I don't feel that I did my best, I am not going to bully myself, but just try that much  harder tomorrow.  I want to make a change and I want it to be for the right reasons.  So that is where I am at.  And even though this is May's project, and we are only a little over half-way through April, I am going to start now.  Something like this can't wait, but by May I should have a better idea of what I want my posts to look like and how I want to push forward on this health journey.  And I don't have an end date in mind for this either - I am actually hoping to have this account be something I continue to post on well past May.  I want to do it for as long as it helps me succeed and hold myself accountable.  So here goes...