to keep seeking Him...

One of the desires of my heart lately has been centered around community.  I have been wanting to be a part of something bigger than myself but have yet to find where I fit in to that.  I really think that part of my longing to begin my own business is to become part of a community of creatives and boss ladies that I so admire and want to learn from.  I see pictures of amazing conferences being posted all the time on Instagram that I would love to attend.  I wish I could network with these wonderful ladies, and yet I don't even have a business yet.  I have been asking the Lord to reveal to me where He wants me to go from here, and I feel like He just remains silent.  Today I was really seeking some answers and I asked Him why He would keep this from me?  Isn't community something that is gospel-centered?  And if we were created to be in community with one another, why haven't you opened any doors, Lord?  And then He spoke.  It was so quiet and yet so unmistakable.  He said to me, "I have designed you to be in relationship.  And yes, that is to be in relationship with others, but first and foremost it is to be in relationship with me.  And while it is not wrong to want to be among like-minded women who want to create and grow and encourage others - it is good, in fact - it is NOT the end goal.  Focusing on finding your niche is the wrong thing to focus on.  FIRST, you need to focus on me.  Keep growing, keep learning, keep your eyes on ME."  Community is such a gift, and it is not wrong to desire it.  But HE is the prize.  He is the first thing I should seek in the morning, and the last thing I should dwell on before I lay my head.  It was the beginning of a much-needed perspective change.  I fully believe that He can and will reveal to me what He has created me to do, and I just as fully believe that He has created within me this desire for a reason.  I just know that right now I need to focus on Him alone and what He wants to teach me.  When the time is right, He will reveal a little more.  So thankful for a God that desires relationship with us, and encourages us to keep seeking Him.