Lately I have been really struggling with my work/life balance. Or what I feel is a lack thereof. I am balancing a full-time job, my cake business, my two girls and their school schedules, laundry and cleaning house, packing lunches, while trying to find time for my husband, working out, and perhaps some "me" time leftover. I know that I have the same amount of time in a day as every one else, I am just trying to prioritize it all and that is where I am having difficulty. I have a LOT of friends/acquaintances that are able to be stay-at-home moms and I am having a very hard time struggling with jealousy over this. I know that the money I bring in right now is necessary for our budget, but sometimes I wonder if there are other ways we could "make it work". I think that my biggest issue is that I am at work for so much of the day that I have very little time to fit all the rest of it in. I feel like my kids are growing up before my eyes and did I make enough cookies with them? Did I read them enough stories? I know they are still young and I (Lord willing) have many more years with them, but I can't help but feel like my days are rushing by and I am not making the most of it. I have been doing some brainstorming for the past few weeks and I realize that right now I am where God has asked me to be. I pray that one day I can stay home and work on my cake business full-time (my dream!) but I think that I need to honor Him and be content in His timing. It is very hard to come home when it is dark outside (this will be happening soon!!) and try to fit in all of the above mentioned tasks. I pray that if it is His will, that He will open doors sooner rather than later for me to stay home and bake, and be there when my kids get off the bus! I hope this becomes a reality some day - maybe once Charlotte is in school - but for now, I need to ask Him to give me a peace about my schedule and trust that He has a plan.
